When I am all alone...

there are times when i feel sad..
feel sad being ignored by someone who I wish I can hold on to..

there are times when I feel regret..
regret for knowing the truth about my life..

there are times when I feel lonely..
lonely when there's no one to wipe my tears or share the pain I felt inside..

there are times when I feel down..
down where i think there's nobody understand me

there are times when I feel happy..
happy when I think of the sweet memories in my life

there are times when I feel rejected..
rejected when I feel like I am just a bother to someone..

there are times when I feel cheated..
cheated when the truth is not like what I been facing off for all this time..

there are times when I feel like hoping..
hoping when someone I like treat me and care about me..

there are times when I feel like being hated..
being hated when the person whom I like doesn't even smile at me..

there are times when I feel like my heart is cracking..
cracking when the voice within me let me hate myself..

there are times when I feel bad..
bad when I can't even do anything good or better for someone I love..

there are times when I feel annoyed..
annoyed when someone doesn't even understand a single sentence that I'm saying..

there are times when I feel relieved..
relieved when there's someone is here to wipe my tears away..

there are times when I feel touched..
touched when the person I admired, said he love me like I do..

there's only sometimes..but most of the times I feel alone,lonely..
i keep on smiling like nothing happened even my heart is cracking..
i feel sad when i keep crying but there's no one's there to wipe my tears..
i feel like giving up..

coz i have given so many hints..but he didn't even understand that i love him..
i am so alone..

with the history of life being buried deep inside my heart..

leaving so much scars and pain to me..
i feel terrible..

coz the person whom I love is not able to share my pain coz he didn't even know..
how could I be strong..if there's no one to support me..
how could I go on when there's no reason for me to do so..

i keep falling down..
failed to heal the pain i feel inside..
i keep looking forward..if there's something i can do to avoid this pain..
but it is just a look..without a meaning..

i keep thinking that i have hurting others heart..
with the pain i feel inside..

i just cannot realize the loves and the cares that are waiting for me
i just don't know..
I'm just so scared to know..but then why i keep hoping?

i don't know..i just..just hoping that person will understand..
hoping that there's someone to take my feet back on ground..
wipe my tears and say to me..
"it's OK..I'm here now..whenever u need me, I'll be there for u"..
but still it seems impossible..

when the truth within me keep making me unconfidence..
even it hurts..still it is the truth..
to whom shall i share those tears..

that i cried alone in the dark regretting..

bout me...

Hey!! Is it touching??
exactly...
full of emotion and sadness..
diz poem was created by M.E.I.A..not me ok!!!
but certain parts..i do feel it..experience it..by myself..
So i think i understand her feeling..
you out there..at one moment..feel its too rite??

AJL 23..totally awe inspiring!!!

What a great night!!!
Wonderful performance from all da artists!!
Congrats to Meet Uncle Hussain & of coz..Faizal Tahir..
U guyz..rockZ!!!!

Best amOng da Best!!Lagu Untukmu...

totally AwesOme!!

enjoyable nite!!
no regrets..
it's for sure....

Waking up with a gloomy feeling...

Oh, fare, I like that!

This morning when I woke up and the gloomy feeling tried to take hold, I said to myself, "Nope, not doing that today!" and went straight to exercise . I didn't lay in bed pondering why I feel bad AGAIN and how I wish it would go away... It helped to shake it off more quickly..

I find that I tend to want to analyze WHY I feel gloomy, why I have negative thoughts, how I'm going to overcome them, how will it feel when I'm better... I've decided to stop doing that. I'm just not going to accept it anymore...When my brain starts to do it's same old panicky, worried, anaylzing-everthing routing, I've been telling it (in an assertive voice!) "No, I don't do that anymore." It seems to help...LOL..

Oh, one more thing about waking up gloomy...I noticed that my body seems to know what time it is! If I wake up at 4 a.m. I don't feel gloomy and go back to sleep...but If I wake up at 6:15 a.m. (five minute before my alarm goes off), I DO feel gloomy! Go figure...ehe~~

The happy have whole days,

and those they choose...
The unhappy have but hours,
and those they lose...

Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize they were the big things...



"LIVE,LOVE,BE HAPPY AND SMILE EVERYDAY..!!!

diz is my wish for u dear...

= Comfort on difficult days
= smiles when sadness intrudes
= rainbows to follow the clouds
= laughter to kiss your lips
= sunsets to warm your heart
= hugs when spirits sag
= beauty for your eyes to see
= friendships to brighten your being
= faith so that you can believe
= confidence for when you doubt
= courage to know yourself
= patience to accept the truth
= Love to complete your life

LollipOp addictiOn!!

i'm bored..
=dad + deep went 2 perak..
=mom + allya went to nanny's house..
=aciq + asyraf + ammar went to dungun..
wat i'm goin 2 do??it's extremely tedious!!
btw..i'm currently watching taiwanese series..
The Legend of Brown Sugar Chilvaries..
well..its entertaining!!

erm..exactly..

atleast its killed my boredom...huh..
i love it!!yeah..i love diz...
its only bcoz...lollipop gang perform in a play!!
haha..
lollipop is the hottest taiwanese group nowadays..
erm..
its juz my opinion but i dun noe da truth..
i saw them in Brown Sugar Macchiato 4 da 1st time..
then..i want it.. more and more and more...
thats how diz lollipOp addiction gettin' started..
i dunno how 2 overcome diz..
i wont overcome diz..
i dun want let it go..
only want..
continue watching...

fabien-prince-a qOan-lilJay-A wei-william

they perform better in The Legend of Brown Sugar Chilvaries..
but..
i prefer the storyline of Brown Sugar Machiatto more..
luv lollipOp!!

still sleepy but...

my sis woke me up diz monink..
she's going back 2 i.p.i.p about an hour agO...wif my dad..
i'm sending her wif my gloomy-bunkface ahakz..
but..i'm hepi..alone now..
no one 2 bother..
no one 2 destroy..
no one 2 mess up..
no one..coz she's gone..tp jgn lupe blk ye dik!!!

its raining outside there..n i'm stil sleepy..feels like going to bed..but..
haaaaaaaaaaa...
my mom asked me for preparing breakfast...
mami...nak tido...=(
i believe she noe my expertize..saden roll sanDwich..
wait..wait..coming mom...

sampai ke Ujung dunia..

currently listening to Dirly's song..
titled: sampai ke ujung dunia..

erm..

"selama kau belum jadi..milikku yang utuh..aku akan selalu milikimu..
selama bumi masih kan terus berputar..aku akan selalu menujumu..
walau ke ujung Dunia.."

reminds me 2 u baby..huhu!!

あなたが いなくて 寂しい気持ちになりました。

i miss u n i'm thinking of u...

Hepi New Year..welcome 2009.

“Another fresh new year is here . . .
Another year to live!
To banish worry, doubt, and fear,
To love and laugh and give!

This bright new year is given me
To live each day with zest . . .
To daily grow and try to be
My highest and my best!

I have the opportunity
Once more to right some wrongs,
To pray for peace, to plant a tree,
And sing more joyful songs!”

wishin' u hepi new year..may all ur dreams come true....